Celebrating my 23th birthday with OHANA n friends. =)

Assalamualaikum wrt wbt,

Alhamdulillah, suda 23 tahun bernafas di bumi Allah ni.. n 4 tahun jgk den da duduk Ireland.. indeed 1001 memories yg diukir yg byk mengajar n mendidik dirini. sejak first year lg, Ohana la mula2 yg diperkenalkan oleh Persatuan Pelajar Malaysia Cork(PPMC).dpt Kak Ain sbg kakak Ohana. seronok sgt everytime Ohana.it's my source of strength, happiness n second family skali dgn Ain, Farahin n Nasrah. sama2 membesar n duduk satu rumah, jd housemates.

Naik tahun kedua, diberi amanah utk jd Kakak Ohana, walhal dlm hati mcm "Aku ni baru setahun jagung ikut usrah da kne bwk usrah plak..Haih" Redha jela..lega sikit ble tau pair dgn Kak Ain, my kakak Ohana since first year. mmg byk flaws sepanjang setahun bwk Ohana tu.. xpyh perinci satu2 tp bersyukur dpt adk2 Ohana yg appreciate kehadiran kte . Munqiza, Shaf, Saz, Imazahra, Huda. slow2 rapat dgn dorg yg very cheerful dan berilmu ni..

Naik tahun ketiga, diberi amanah utk bwk ohana lg.. n kali ni bwk ohana utk org yg duduk satu rumah. Alhamdulillah, jodoh berpanjangan dgn Shaf n Saz. 2 org yg nama lebih kurang sama, terbelit2 lidah mse first year bwk ohana dorg. adk Ohana lain ialah Wani, Bella, Marissa, Ika, Ainun.. Dan kali ni den jd kakak Ohana yg main, pair dgn Juju, adk yg sgt cheerful dlm Ohana. penyeri Ohana sbb pandai wt lwk, dgn gaya yg bersahajanya..full of surprise everytime Ohana..

Naik tahun keempat, diberi amanah lg utk bwk Ohana rumah yg sama. tp in the middle Kira tukar dgn Ika. lain perasaan ble bwk sorg sbb sume depends kt dri sndri. pengisian etc. Tp Alhamdulillah, Allah permudahkan byk bnde. dpt adk2 yg sgt bersemangat n komited dgn Ohana. satu tips ringkas utk spe2 yg sdg membawa usrah ialah tajdid niat selalu lillahi Taala n preparation is the key! everything else will comes along, ukhwah yg dibina terjalin erat ble each other cares for each other n doa selalu utk sume org.

So, today I feel blessed because my adk2 Ohana celebrated my birthday in Ramen..dpt bunga lg..hehe..sejak haritu lg da terdetik nk mkn ramen n dlm hati everytime tgk bunga kt tesco " Kan bez kalau ade org bg bunga". Alhamdulillah, harini Allah makbulkan permintaan hati yg tak terungkap ni. dpt hadiah t-shirt with pictures of Ain n me mse Birm frm Ain, my kwn gaduh sejak first year..hehe..tp skg da xgaduh..ain sgt baik n rajin. I learnt a lot frm u. n tq so much for all the endless support, doa n warmth wishes from family n friends. Smoga Allah memberkati dan merahmati kalian dunia akhirat.

Ya Allah, apa saja nikmat yang kami dapati petang ini dari mana-mana makhluk-Mu maka sebenarnya dari Engkau jua. Tidak ada sekutu bagi-Mu. Puji dan kesyukuran (kami) untuk-Mu."-doa dlm Mathurat

So, utk tahun ni den aim utk give more presence to everyone especially Allah..utk menjiwai setiap perkara yg dibuat be it study, solat, Habluminallah Habluminnas etc.Biiznillah.

Double surprise lg, Ain tanye "Tipah, mana gam selipar tu ea, xjmpe?" meh2, aku bg kt kau. turun2 je Ahlul Fateh, chef Nadia bwk kek yg super cantik dan sedap dihiasi oleh Seha yg comel dan shbt2 lain yg dtg sambil nyanyi Allah selamatkan kamu... ..Jzkk korg..so sweet..=)

 Ok, signing off for today. Forensic exam in another 15 days oso. Semoga dpt study dgn tekun. All d bez sume.

Unexpected!

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Alhamdulillah syukur atas segala nikmat yang diberi oleh Allah. selawat dan salam atas junjungan Nabi Muhammad SAW dan para sahabat baginda.

So many things happened in the past 3 months since blk Eire...teringat lg mse bulan sept, stressed sgt2 smpi nangis2 sbb xjmpe supervisor utk Final Year Project..n ble cte kat mama, Alhamdulillah rse lega..support frm housemates n doa shbt2 n family yg tak terhingga, Alhamdulillah few days after tu dpt reply from Prof Colin Bradley under GP psl topic Self-monitoring blood glucose among Type 2 Diabetes patients. quite a straight forward punye tajuk..Alhamdulillah, da hantar CREC Ethical Approval..smoga diluluskan...Aminn..Now, baru la bole study dgn aman ckt..kalau x, hari2 asyk terfikir psl questionnaire la, method of study la etc etc.

Alhamdulillah, kak sha da bersalin. So, I am officially a mak su!!!!! n expecting lg 2 ank buah In Shaa Allah tahun dpn..smoga Kak Farah, Fiqa dan kandungan mereka membesar dgn sihat dan sempurna dan dilindungi Allah sentiasa..xsabarnye nk blk Msia..nk peluk cium Safiyya yg comel dan cantik tuuuuuuu.. =) 

Tu jela updatenye..hehe. hospital rotation Alhamdulillah so far so gud. byk kne study, tula kne pandai manage time. So far, den plg enjoy Ophthalmology sbb Mr Mark James baik sgt!!! haha..ape punye reason la..yg lain pun ok..Cuma, I think I prefer medicine more than surgery..sbb xlarat berdiri lama2 kt OT. haha..next rotation which will starts next week is Surgery!! haha..I'm thrilled. 

Ble rse keliru xtau nk pilih yg mne satu, cbe wat isytiharah n solat sunat istikharah. mse doa istikharah, btolkn2 mean it. Ade barakah dlm keputusan tu In Shaa Allah.haha...Letakkan segala pergantungan pada Allah, bkn manusia.. yes, kne berusaha tp jgn lpe utk tawakal pada Allah sentiasa. Ok. see u soon..Tajdid niat selalu dlm setiap ape yg kte wt..buatlah segalanya kerana Allah, baik dlm study, dakwah, tarbiyyah etc. sufi hati, jundi amali. Cari kekuatan diri dlm bermunajat dan tahajud pada Allah. Till then..=)

                      "Worry ends when faith begins" quoted.  

so true. let's always strengthen our faith in Allah. =)

Sweet summer memories in Msia. =)

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Alhamdulillah syukur atas segala nikmat yang diberi oleh Allah. selawat dan salam atas junjungan Nabi Muhammad SAW dan para sahabat baginda.

"Nur Latifah has a reflective and idealistic type of personality.Loves to participate in social activities.Extremely loyal by nature. Laid-back unless a strongly-held value is threatened. She is a talented writer." Google Yourself.

hehe.. da mmg sanguine btol..talented writer tu xmenahan. I take it as a booster for Final Year Project..Harap2 dpt idea yg bgs dan supervisor yg baik.. tp talking about writing, mmg dari dlu sejak sek ren ske penulisan. tulis karangan pnjg2. so hrpnye, this time around dpt salurkan talent tu dlm FYP. 

Anyhow, today I'm back here in Cork to pursue my 4th year studies. Before going any further what I want to do or improve(maybe in next post) lets, recall some sweet memories to be shared when I'm in Msia. hehe..Gud news is my 2 brothers are married. Abdul Azim n Kak Farah. Dan Ainul Yakin n Nur Afiqah. Alhamdulillah, sume urusan berjalan lancar. bits n pieces to improve though in terms of timing. Lauk2 sume sdp2, Leha World from paroi jd pilihan catering mama buat kali kedua. seronok sgt jmpe sedara-mara dari belah mama from penang n belah abh from melaka. dan soalan common yg ditanye: ble nk blk ireland? hehe..makanya, saya jwb soalan tu dlm fb jgk, skali mintak doa sume org. 

Alhamdulillah, flight was smooth all the way. Kalini ramai plak geng2 cork blk sme flight. almost 25+ org jgk la..hee.But yg xmenahan tu, mse dok salam2 mama n abah, terus berderaian air mata..xdpt ditahan lg. sbenanye nangis terharu campur sedih tu. terharu sbb kali ni sume org dlm family dpt anta kat airport. skali ngn kakak2 ipar den ngan mak ayh mentua abdul pn ade skali. 

so hepi yet so sad to leave them. 

Almost 3 months holiday finished. And I'm glad I got to spend most of the time with my beloved family. mcm2 family reunion this time around. Lepas je Abdul nikah, a week after that p Kuching, Sarawak. Attend wedding abg Allison who is my cousin's wife. haha.. punye la jauh relationship dia. tp seronok sgt trip tu, skali p ngn Mak Tam, Pak Tam, Auntie Jamie n Pak cik Din. food dia terbaik!! laksa sarawak, mee kolok, teh chin peng(teh 3 layer), n mkn2 seafood n kek lapis beraneka perisa dan warna mmg wajib try kalau dtg Kuching.

naik boat cruise sambil layan so Omar comel tu nari2. hehe.. pastu p Cultural Village; tgk rumah Iban, Bidayuh, Hulu..tangga dia steep gle. dangerous! so jln berhati2 n zikir salu. n bez jgk tgk wedding org Sarawak dlm adt dorg. unik! siap main2 alat muzik n tarian sarawak yg pakai cawat dan agk sexy tu. before blk semenanjung, kteorg smpt lg dijamu oleh mak ayah Allison kt umh dorg. dorg ni sgt la bgs melayan tetamu..thumbs up! makanan terhidang, sume sdp2..walaaa..

Pastu, ble Raya cm biasa...tlg mama n mak ngah sume msk2 utk mak tok. Alhamdulillah, cuti ni rsenye byk kali dpt ziarah mak tok n tok wan kat kl. mse puasa n nk beli buku, raya n before blk eire after p open house Kak Farah. borak2 ngn tok wan psl kisah2 lama mse tok wan muda2 dlu..rse seronok dga. n ziarah sedara mara belah abah kt melaka..cuma terkilan ckt sbb kteorg lmbt dtg, xsmpt Marhaban ramai2 kt umh Nek su.

mak tok salu pesan: Blaja rajin2, nanti blk Msia bole rawat mak tok tau.

Then, mak teh plan BBQ+ doa selamat dan tahlil arwah kat teratak Haji Latiff dan Hajjah Mariam.terkenang2 arwah atok ngn nenek. Al-fatihah bg mereka. siap kne bg ucapan sorg2. time den, xabes lg ayat first da nangis, sebak. leleh btol kali ni. T.T

N lepak2 dgn mmbr sek ren, men.. Paling epic advice from mira dlm kete: "Kau bg aku 3 tahun. Aku nk cbe achieve sebanyak mne yg aku aim in life. utk bg mak bapak hepi n senang, buat ape yg org single bole; ie travel etc. Dan ble sampai mse yg sesuai nanti, akan lahirlah si dia meminang kau!" ayat last tu den alter ckt, bg gempak ckt. haha..pendek kata : 

Hidup kne ade matlamat. Dan matlamat sebaik2nya adalah Lillahi Taala. Yakinlah padaNya. Berbaktilah pd keluarga dlu. everything else will come through. Because we are still Young Generation. N there's more than that in life for now.

tp saat itu tak mungkinku lupa. melihatmu tersenyum malu di samping kedua ibu bapamu. amboi. the end. lalala..=p

Roma, 3rd year & Abang den da kawen! =)

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Alhamdulillah syukur atas segala nikmat yang diberi oleh Allah. selawat dan salam atas junjungan Nabi Muhammad SAW. so let's begin the story shall we?

Almost 3 months without updates, pardon me for not being consistent with this blog. my bad. nevertheless here I am to continue my writing In Shaa Allah.to cut story short, few things happened in my life and I'm so grateful for every single thing. Alhamdulillah..

1. I've passed 3rd year.. big relief..can't wait to start 4th year next term..=)

Alhamdulillah, syukur xterhingga ble tau result haritu. cuak jgk at first place sbb last time subject Patho punye carry marks sipi2 je. so, I worked really hard dgn latihan tubi MCQ Robbins Review for every topic, brush up blk knowledge patho sume. mmg struggle habis-habisan jgk mse final tu. dan Alhamdulillah, berkat doa mama abah, family n friends sume, usaha dan rezeki yg Allah bagi, I've passed every module dgn honours overall. so, adik2 yg tga duk bce entry ni (kalau ade la), never give up hope. rahmat Allah tu luas. my moto of life is; " success is a journey not a destination". so, kne always trust in Allah. kdg2 ble fail tu mmg la frust, sedih sume. but that's not the end of it! rectify, improve from the mistakes u've made. ujian tu adalah sentuhan kasih syg Allah. muhasabah byk2 in every aspects; academic n ur ibadah. doa utk kwn2 jgn tinggal everytime lepas solat. jgn selfish. Jazakumullahu khairan jaza' kpd sume org yg bg endless support especially family n friends dan tutor kami yg sgt kami respect: Dr. Fahmi. =)

but the experience meeting with patients is priceless. I really enjoyed the clinical rotation especially kat Neurosurgery rotation in Cork University Hospital(CUH). consultants yg baik2 walaupun everytime pegi mmg kne prepare btol2 kalau x nanti kne tembak2 dgn soalan. hehe. tp seronok sgt. General Practitioner(GP) was really awesome too. one-to-one coaching from Dr. Orla n Dr. Linda mmg sgt2 membantu in improving my history taking, present back the history, clinical skills;taking blood, injections and medicine knowledge. my tips for ye guys( going to 3rd year), learn as much as u can with ur GP.

2. went to Italy with Teya n jln2 tadabur alam. bez sgt.

From 14-20 June, kteorg p Rome-->Pisa--->Venice--->Florence--->Venice. walaupun plan last minit which is mse tga dok exam tu tga dok kalut pikir accomodation kat sne n the fac dat jln 2 org, mmg cuak jgk in the first place sbb dga kata kat Rome byk pick-pocket, so kteorg mmg berhati2 btol. Alhamdulillah nothing happened. berkat doa byk2 mse musafir kata Teya. so here's the brief plan of wat we did:

Rome: visit Colloseum, Roman Forum n Palatine Hill. sume da book tiket in advance, n amek pakej so xpyh beratur pnjg2. before tu da tgk ckt documenatry psl Rome history. mmg complicated tp byk lessons bole blaja. from zaman kegemilangan dia hingga zaman  kejatuhan dia. cmne pemerintah dia treat rakyat dia dgn teruk smpi menteri2 dia yg bunuh pemerintah tu. yg wat is most exciting part for me is dalam quran ade mentioned psl Rome dlm surah Ar-Rum. penedk je surahnya tp byk ibrah yg bole blaja. esk tu, p jln2 kt Trevi fountain, n byk plaza2 yg kteorg g. sume within walking distance so, xpyh nk amek metro pn xpe. cuma ble nk blk tu naik metro n bus tu hostel.

then esk naik train p Pisa, guna Railpass for 147 euro for 3 days travel + 1 free travel day. overall sgt berbaloi gne pass ni. sbb mode transportation form main city to the another in italy sume efficient by train. so, ble da beli railpass ni, reserve seat kt Italiarail awl2, at least seminggu la. sbb last minit reserve habes nt.

Pisa: terjmpe group Msians from UK, sme2 otw nk p Pisa tower. nk jd cternye, kteorg ade 2 hours je before next train to Florence before g Venice. mmg rushing btol. snap2 gambar je, troih berlari p Pisa Centrale station. Alhamdulillah smpt naik train. smpi kat Florence plak, ticket kteorg slh class, patutnye 2nd class tp terbook 1st class, so kne tuka. n giliran plak lambat. so, tertinggal train. train yg ade lg sejam cmtu tp kne pisahhhhhhhh.. Teya mcm xmo amek dat option berpisah naik lain coach, tp that's d only option yg ade unless kne tggu lama lg. so, kteorg split.

Alhamdulillah, bertemu blk kat Venice. hehe..Teya takut den tertidur je. dpt duduk sebelah laki muslim dlm train. dia da keje 30 tahun kat textile company. fasih btol dia ckp Italy. asyik2 dok Mamia. haha. tp baik jela pak cik tu. then rehat kt Piave hotel, in Venice Mestre. 3 star hotel, tp mmg selesa sgt. bez2. recommended kalau ade org nk p, 97 euro for 3 nights. murah kot. then, blk venice pln utk esk punye journey kt Florence tp xreserve seat train lg..pening mlm tu dok fikir cne.

unforgettable scene di train station & train to Florence::
sume high speed train ticket da abes, tinggal yg bese2 je which is yg kne tuka2 train n lambat. siap dia ckp xd ticket train. juz naik je. kami pn naik la. dan duduk kt random seats yg kosong. nasib kurang baik, kne bangun duduk seat lain sbb seat tu seat org lain withour us knowing. n then, ade la pak cik tua ni umur sekita2 lewat 60-an tga duk kata2 cm mengumpat jgk bunyinye dgn pak cik muda sebelah den. den pn naik bengang la. dialog kami:

Tipah: wat do u say to this man? I feel offended u know!
Old man: (pandang sinis) sambil terus dok ckp2 dlm bhasa Italy dgn org muda tu
Me: We travelled using pass ok? (sambil duk tunjuk pass tu)
Old man: come, let me see. I can speak English
Teya: tipah, jgn bg.. (mcm bg sign jgn cari gaduh, tipah)
Me: ok nah. sambil tunjuk kat org muda tu jgk.
after a while dia tgk puas2 Eurorail pass tu. n cter bertambah menarik sbb ade error kt pass tu saying our residence is USA.
Old man: so, u r from US?
Me: Yes!
Old man: Which part?
Me: (dgn muka confidentnye sbb xnk cari gaduh lg) California!
Old man: Dun lie to me kid.
Me: I'm not lying ok?!

train conductor dtg, n Teya ckp kteorg nk p Florence, n byr 18 euro. which is considered legal!! nasib la dpt seat lain plak lpas tu. xlalu nk pndg mke pak cik tu. hahaha..

Me: I'm sorry, I think we took the wrong coach.(senyum sinis. haha)

Old man: Yeah, it's possible.

along the way, byk la muhasabah blk. kenapa la duk tbe2 hot kt situ? hai, btol2 ujian Allah bg nk uji kesabaran den, kne byk bersabar lpas ni. n Teya nasihat: Teya kalau rse nk marah, Teya akn fikir n fahamkn dlu kalau Teya jd mcm org tu, patut ke aku marah atau react mcmtu. (to put on the other shoes, to understand before to be understood) zaasss..

Florence: city of leather goods. time for shopping. hehe.. ala, beli souvenirs utk family je pn. form waller, handbags, belt, book cover, leather jacket etc juz say it sume ade! kalau byk duit mmg nk beli utk sume org, friends, sedara-mara sume tp xmampu la. saya blaja gne duit MARA je pun. hehe..ade flashmob wear a "Hug me" t-rshirt n play d game plak mse tu.  tp xsmpt join sbb takut xsmpt. then, we tried their pizza: Potato n mushroom piza. amek yg vege jela kn. sedap sgt potato tu punye. lain dari yg lain.

Venice: a floating city. travelled using Vaporetta; water bus boat. we booked the Viator tour to : Murano, Buranno n Torcello for 20 euro. berbaloi dan seronk sbb ade guide yg explain sejarah dia sme. Murano: famous with glass glowing factory. lawa2 glass dia. Burano: rumah fishermen yg warna-warni. Torcello: gereja lama.

 then, kteorg naik Gondola for 28 euro per person, naik with 6 people. org yg bwk Gondola tu strict sgt, rosak mood ckt, tp buat xendah jela.. kesian Indian couple tu.kat venice ni ade jual masks cantik2, tp i xberkenaan nk beli so xbeli pn. then blk Dublin-->cork.

overall, I wud say this is the most smooth trip la compared to the others. seronok dpt travel dgn Teya, jazakillahu khairan jaza' to u sbb byk tahan keranh kte yg ntah ape2 ni. i learn next armsterdam nk? hehe.  =)


3. Abdul, abang sulung den da kawen ngn kak Farah..

Alhamdulillah, seronok dpt new family member. hehe. smajlis akad nikah n persandingan kt umah pengantin perempuan kt Klang skali dgn adik Kak Farah, Kak Nani. moga rumah tangga berkekalan hingga ke jannah dan diberkati Allah sentiasa dna dikurniakan zuriat yg soleh dan solehah lg musleh. Aminn.next in line is Ainul Yakin in Ogos in shaa Allah. =)

4. ...misteri si dia...

My Isoc moments in UCC . =)

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Alhamdulillah..3 great years with unforgettable experience n memories despite the continuous struggle between academic n Isoc, but all I treasured them the most. the people in the committee for example taught me a lot on how to become a good leader; how to solve a conflict, the ukhwah among us n others are sweet.

I would like to say Jazakumullahu khairan jaza' to everyone who had contributed in the society be it people in the committee or the beloved Isoc members. May Allah strengthen everyone of us especially the new committee to keep on continue to do good to the society as a whole, muslims n non-muslims to spread dakwah. May Allah accept our good deeds. Amin.

I vividly remembered how I was suddenly elected in the committee in my first year by the nomination from Syaima. so unexpected because I wasn't actively involved in societies back in my prepation A-Level college,KYUEM or be it islamic society(because I wasn't dat religious). But, somehow Allah gave me the strength n opportunity to do gud in this platform; Isoc for 3 years.

Yes, unexpectedly I survived. Although it was really a tough call for me in this year because of the huge amount of work in university with the hospital attachments, GP attachments etc etc, Allah made me through this journey regardless of the challenges I faced. I didn't give up. When things are getting tougher, n I was in doubt whether to continue or to stop in  middle, Allah gave me the strength to keep hang in on. Even when people saying "you r doing too much work, just stop!" I knew from that moment: No it's a definite answer. because we will never be enough doing good work even if we think we r. because just imagining the so called burden that we are facing now is incomparable to the burden faced by our pioneer seniors in Isoc in setting up the society. or when we think in a bigger picture, our own Prophets; their obstacles n challenges in spreading Islam are way more difficult than us.

Therefore, I learnt to always challenged myself to be better n to remind me that I am just the continuer.

Somehow I regretted a bit knowing that I haven't really polished my juniors committee dat much because I struggle between becoming a good manager and a good leader. A good leader is the one who can build more leaders in the future not just followers. There's still huge amount of improvement I need to learn . But I have huge trust that they are capable doing that. May Allah ease n strengthen them all.

I also reflected upon my involvement in the society. being older shouldn't make you any superior to others. older just means maturity in terms of experience but not superiority. The only One that can have the superiority above all is only Allah Al-Mutakabbir(The Greatest). the intention must be pure.

Hence, I would like to apologize for any of my shortcomings. It's been a great pleasure n blessing to be in Isoc. Alhamdulillah. =)

On a side note, today is a beautiful day for me because I felt  happy being appreciated for the small good deeds I did. not to boastfully tell that I am good, but I just wanted to share the happiness being appreciated by others. I then recognized that's why we are continuously reminded to thank Allah for everything that He gave us. I remembered once Ustaz Nouman Ali Khan remind us to be the people of Alhamdulillah; to thank Allah n praise Allah. =)

Don't jump off the bridge!!

Don’t jump off the bridge!!

Mr. D is a 63 years old single divorced man living in G* for 6 years was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. He is a civil engineer and used to work as a Math teacher in Africa. He described himself as qual(extreme distress of body and mind) with his feelings. He felt sad since he and his ex-wife divorced. He believe in community and saying that his stay in G* helped him to feel better with himself, to do some washing up, keeping the bed tidy and now he cook himself Vegan diet. He has had insomnia years ago and need to take sleeping tablets but still feel foggy in the morning. Now, his sleeping patterns have become normal although he is feeling tired most the time lying in bed. Nevertheless, when asked about what he enjoyed most, he said singing, going out to the city and writing a book. He felt that by writing a book helps him to express his feelings. He divorced in 1991 and had 2 daughters each 27 and 28 currently living in Scotland with the step father. He left Scotland because he was rejected for his project. He has applied for the Cork city partnership employment for people with disability. He finds drinking Ginseng tea help to boost his energy. He currently on Lithium, Epilim(sodium valproate), Serase and folic acid. No known drug allergies. He smokes 10-15 cigarettes per day for 30 years but trying to stop twice using Nicorette but unsuccessful. He is a binge drinker. There is no relevant family history of psychiatric illness. His father died at 73 years due to cataract complications during surgery and his mother died at 83 years of old age. All his 3 brothers are well and only one married but no children. He said he grew up in the argumented family with shouting to each other, mom being loud is the dominant one in the family while his father being a quiet one. He felt happy when his father put his hands around his mother’s waist but felt sad afterwards when his father put his hand away. He was good in school and very active when he was young. He is vulnerable with fighting environment like when he was in Belfast. He attempts suicide to jump off the bridge after following a crazy guy advice but fortunately he is saved by a couple after they rang the ambulance.  I advised him “if there’s one thing you can remember from this visit; Don’t jump off the bridge!”. 

This was my report for the visit but actually it was more fun and scary than what it seems. hehe. well at first, he welcomed with a warmth smile but afterwards when I start asking questions his face went blank and furious at some times and I don't know how to respond. I act normal and try to be natural. After a brief introduction, I asked:

Me: How r u feeling today? 

He: I feel nervous meeting with someone from one side of the world with different culture. HAHA. 

And then he start mentioning about Islam. and I asked what does he know about Islam? 

Misconceptions: Men are treated better than women. Quran is written by Prophet Muhammad. Islam is about war.Overwhelmed by the misconceptions, I tried to explain generally that there are not right. Suprisingly, he reads quran and finds it is poetic and many strories inside. 

While asking about his life, what makes him feel sad, one hypothesis I can come out is most of illness rooted from family breakdown;divorce. "I felt happy when my father put his hands around my mother’s waist but felt sad afterwards when my father put his hand away." He finds himself vulnerable in a fighting situation when his mom shouting at his father. 

And then when he told about his daughters, a light of hope appeared. I treasured them the most especially my youngest. She makes me laughed and tickles me, not physically. hehehe.. And when asked what makes he feels sad? He said "When I know I'm not going to meet my daughter for 12 months" . T.T At that moment, I picture my father in my mind and heart that I showed him the picture of my family in my tablet at the end of the visit. so personal. haha.. 

Few feedbacks from him that makes me feel much more confident: You have a very good eye contact, not like a psychologist who only jot down everything he says without looking at me! You know eye contact is the part of healing" You make me feel comfortable." =)

Trying my best to give dakwah to the people I met. And apparently, he is a very nice man. =)

Praying that everyone who is afflicted with any illness will recover by the healing of the Healer,Allah. =)

And when I am ill, it is He who cures me. Surah As-Syu'ra:80

Welcome 2014! =)

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every week of every month of every year of every decade of our lives is an opportunity to do better than the previous one.-Mufti Menk

Alhamdulillah, lg beberapa jam lg nk msk tahun baru 2014. bukanlah beerti nk menyambut tp sebaiknye kte amek peluang utk audit diri. audit ape yg kte da wat selama tahun lepas or generally for this whole while 22 years living in this earth. amek peluang utk reflect ape yg patut kte wat lebih atau kurang. lebihkan yg baik dan kurangkan maksiat/lagha ok? bukan lebihkan gula plak...menyambut seru kerajaan utk berjimat eh? hee

bcoz they are getting married.. In shaa Allah..rinduu..<3

Ok la rsenye, kali ni nk jujur je la ape yg den rse for this whole while, i mean 2013 has been a great year after all but nevertheless ade cabaran dan dugaan, konflik yg telah dihadapi, berupaya utk mematangkan diri harapnye. walau ape pun yg berlaku, yakinlah ade hikmahNya. dan yakinlah dunia ini hanyalah sementara dan bertindaklah seperti seorang musafir yg hanya akn bawa ape yg perlu. but in mind, dunia inilah perjuangan hidup kte utk mencari redha Allah.




أَمۡ حَسِبۡتُمۡ أَن تَدۡخُلُواْ ٱلۡجَنَّةَ وَلَمَّا يَأۡتِكُم مَّثَلُ ٱلَّذِينَ خَلَوۡاْ مِن قَبۡلِكُم‌ۖ مَّسَّتۡہُمُ ٱلۡبَأۡسَآءُ وَٱلضَّرَّآءُ وَزُلۡزِلُواْ حَتَّىٰ يَقُولَ ٱلرَّسُولُ وَٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ مَعَهُ ۥ مَتَىٰ نَصۡرُ ٱللَّهِ‌ۗ أَلَآ إِنَّ نَصۡرَ ٱللَّهِ قَرِيبٌ۬ (٢١٤)
“Apakah kalian mengira akan (dapat) masuk surge sedang belum datang kepada kalian (cobaan) sebagaimana halnya orang-orang terdahulu sebelum kalian? Mereka ditimpa malapetaka dan kesengsaraan serta digoncang (dengan bermacam-macam cobaan) sehingga berkatalah Rasul dan orang-orang yang beriman bersamanya: “Bilakah datangnya pertolongan Allah?” Ingatlah, sesungguhnya pertolongan Allah itu amat dekat”. (Q.S. al-Baqoroh [2]: 214).

dan kte perlu ingat setiap org ade struggle msg2 dan seharusnye kte struggle for the sake of Allah alone. in terms of our studies, amanah sbg seorang khalifah di bumi Allah ini, dan balance dgn sebg hamba Allah. ape2 pun it go back to basic our niat. niat yg ikhlas lillahi Taala..i know it's easier said than done, tp yakinlah dan teruskan berdoa moga Allah bimbing hati kte yg bersifat bolak-balik ni. Berdoa dari hati yg dlm penuh kerintihan meminta dariNya.

يَا مُقَلِّبَ الْقُلُوبِ ثَبِّتْ قَلْبِى عَلَى دِينِكَ

Yaa Muqallibal Quloob Thabbit Qalbee ‘alaa Deenik.

“Oh turner of the hearts (Allah, the Most High), keep our hearts firm on your religion”[Authenticated by al-Albanee in al-Jaam'i as-Sagheer 1323/7988]

n juz like exams, life will gets tougher indeed time by time.. ujian adalah sebenarnye utk meninggikan darjat kte. 

missing mama n abah so much. =')

so, expect to bear heavier burden, bigger struggle.. huuuuuu..rsenye mcm da xmampu nk bernafas plak sebenarnye ble dok fikir satu satu tanggungjawab yg ade....semoga Allah kuatkan hati2 kte dan tsabatkan hati2 kte dlm perjuangan yg suci utk menegakkan Islam di muka bumiMu.  kuatkan diri dgn membaca AQ, menghayati kalam2 Allah, menulusuri sirah2 Rasulullah SAW dlm menyebarkan dakwah. betapa hebatnya ujian yg para Nabi hadapi, namun mereka tetap teguh dan istaqamah berdakwah menyeru manusia dgn kalimah syahadah La illa Ha illallah Muhammadur Rasulullah. ambil ibrah n follow their footsteps. 

nasihat yang baik dari seorang sahabat, Haziqah-quoted from buku PUISI13: 

Bila ketika datang rasa malas dan nafsu jahat datang, katakanlah pada diri sendiri:

"Kerana kamu, darah Rasulullah SAW mengalir, 

kerana kamu, air mata Rasulullah SAW mengalir"

Iqra' Iqra' Iqra'. baca baca baca. semoga ilmu yg dibaca bermanfaat utk diri dan ummah. 

Selamat tahun baru, semoga diri kte menjadi lebih baik dari sebelumnya. Aminn.. =)

teruskan berdoa utk saudara2 kte seluruh dunia terutamnya di syria, Palestin, Myanmar, Filipina dan dearest country Malaysia.