first week class. =p

Assalamualaikum,

Alhamdulillah, selesai minggu pertama kelas; Orthopaedic week. bez jgk minus jetlag part yg menyebabkan diri ni mengantok je almost everyday mse kelas pagi2. need to control on dat like seriusly.

so many things happened a week before I flew back to Ireland. demam sbb kne hujan mse redah hujan nk p kedai buku Kamal tu. as a result jd crancky dat last week, when in fact dat's the crucial week where I want it to be perfect; read happy moments with family. tp disebabkan masih xmatang, sebab demam bole jd crancky dgn parents sume. huuu.. I regret so much.

nevertheless, I tried to fix it. still trying though. guess what I'm not alone in this similar situation, E Von n some other friends had d same problems.I guess our mind haven't compute yet dat we gonna leave home very soon. hmm..but Alhamdulillah, other than that everything went smoothly for me. except bits n there, flight delay, bag delay etc.

one thing that I learnt is anything dat our parents did for us is for our own benefit. so, just agree with them or at least if you're not dun show dat face of not agreeing and most importantly dun argue much. because they r always right. mne tahu sbb mama duk remind myself to drink water 24/7 menyebabkan den sihat, mne tahu sbb abah suruh minum air daun kaduk tu dpt sejukkan badan etc etc. they took gud care of me juz like I was still their baby. love being pampered though. heee.. but, I guess from my point of view everything needs modesty. not too much, nor too less. but parents are just being parents.

so, Alhamdulillah fever subsided when I came to Ireland. eczema too because I realised I cannot be in hot weather for too long..heheh..or else eczema attack will come. so, another reason to stay n work here? hahah..still planning though. anyway, its gud to be back. minus the homesickness. its weird when they are right in front of u, u dun really appreciate much, but when they r away, suddenly u become appreciative of their presence. so, its true the heart grew fonder when apart. sob2..

so kids, pliz appreciate ur parents while they r still alive. always make habit to sedekah Al-Fatihah to them after every Fajr prayer, give them a call/text whenever u're free etc etc. n never be shy to admit ur mistakes n seek forgiveness from them. sob2

on a side note, I've entered 3rd year Alhamdulillah.. time flies so fast n I still remember the first day I flew to Ireland with Ain sume. n now we already 3rd year which means clinical years gonna start next week. hehe..gud news, the AUCMS students will continue staying here for the rest of 5 years which means we gonna graduate together In shaa Allahh..hopefully the med school will accomodate all of us including the GEM students well. hee..but then let us pray that my other friends will pass their Autumn exams n continue 3rd year also.

excited to have our juniors here. for the rest of the kids, pliz come back soon..be prepared to enjoy 2nd year. hehehe..till we meet again..all d bez in everything dat u you. =)

Nenek tercinta.=')

Assalamualaikum,


Hati kurang sedap ptg tu walaupun esoknya nak pegi Sungai Petani. keseronokan nk p kenduri kawen cousin hilang entah ke mana. esok tu, kami pegi jgk ke sungai petani, (abah, mama, ainul dan diri sndri). singgah 3 tempat R&R (Seremban, Tapah, Sungai Perak) dan Alhamdulillah, tiba dgn selamat di hotel pkul 4 ptg. sempat baring sebentar sebelum nk pegi carik makanan.

mse tu, abah ckp nenek dlm keadaan kritikal. Allahu.. sebak dada. kalaulah ku tahu keadaan nenek sebegitu, tidaklah aku ajak abah mama ke sg. petani. keadaan cepat sgt berubah. minggu lepas mse raya nenek kelihatan seperti biasa, nmpk sedikit pulih tp nenek masih uzur dan hanya terbaring. hanya mampu minum susu dari nasogastric tiub. keadaan nenek seolah2 seperti bayi semula.

Dan (hendaklah diingat bahawa) sesiapa yang Kami panjangkan umurnya, Kami balikkan kembali kejadiannya (kepada keadaan serba lemah; hakikat ini memang jelas) maka mengapa mereka tidak mahu memikirkannya? [Surah Yassin:68]

mse raya haritu sebelum nk balik seremban, seperti biasa kami akan melawat nenek terlebih dahulu. smpt mintak nenek doakan utk cucu dia ni. sambil diri berkata" nopah sentiasa doakan nenek". saat tu air mata tak tertahan lagi. bercucuran seperti juga nenek. tak ku sangka itulah kali terakhir ku berjumpa nenek.

pukul 6.30 petang, mak lang mesej abah " Mak da nazak". Allahu..terkejut, sebak. hanya doa dan zikir yg xputus2 kami kirimkan utk nenek saat tu dan sepanjang perjalanan dari sungai petani ke melaka. perjalanan terus tanpa henti kecuali utk isi minyak dan alas perut ckt agk meletihkan bg kami semua. Bayangkan dari pagi ke pagi esok tu terus menerus. mama kerisauan melihat abah yg tetap gagah membawa kereta tanpa tukar dgn ainul di sisinya. "Alhamdulillah, harini tak letih dan abah dpt kekuatan bwk kereta".

pangggilan telefon setiap sejam dari mak lang, mak teh agak mencemaskan dgn setiap pertanyaan kat mana. tatkala di Machap Baru, pak itam call " kat mana? cepat ckt." abah kelihatan letih saat itu namun tetap cuba gagahkan diri meneruskan perjalanan ke selandar.

"Mak, xpe la, xpayah tunggu Enal. kalau mak nk pegi dlu xpe. Enal da nk smpai da tu" mak lang berbisik kat nenek.

3 minit kemudian,kami smpai dgn selamat dan pertolongan dari Allah pkul 4.05 pagi namun nenekku, Hajjah Meriam bt Hawa sudahpun pulang ke rahmatullah. pulang ke PenciptaNya.

Inna Lillahi wa inna ilayhi Raji un

Truly, to Allah we belong and truly, to Him we shall return.

[Noble Quran 2:156]

 Titisan air mata bercucuran seperti tidak ku percaya. mak ngah suruh ku cek nenek. lantas aku ambil stetoskop Emi dan cek pulse nenek , radial pulse, carotid pulse dan juga heartbeat. namun, apatah daya tiada dpt ku dengar ape2. hospital attendan kemudian mengesahkan kematian nenek apabila tiada respon semasa dia cek pupil constriction nenek dgn suluhan cahaya di mata nenek.

Pagi tu, badan terlalu letih dan hanya mampu tidur 2 jam. pagi2 tu , adik beradik nenek sume dtg tlg siapkan kain kapan nenek n uruskan hal2 pengkebumian nenek. pagi tu juga, hujan turun dgn lebat sekejap. Alhamdulillah, mama, Nek Cik, Nek Su, menantu nenek dan cucu2 nenek termasuklah diri sndri dpt mandikan jenazah nenek yg sgt bersih dan lembut. Penuh rumah mak lang dgn saudara mara, kawan2 nenek sehingga ke halaman rumah. 

kemudian, jenazah nenek disolatkan dan dikebumikan bersebelahan dgn kubur arwah atuk. Bacaan doa dan tahlil di kubur nenek dan di kampung juga dilakukan. bertemu semula dgn saudara mara dpt serba serbi menyembuhkan hati yg lara. sebak setiap kali uztaz berdoa dan mengingatkan perihal mati; setiap yg bernyawa pasti akan mati. 

Smoga roh nenek dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan bersama golongan yg beriman. Amin. Al-fatihah,.

"2 peristiwa besar yg berlaku mse cuti nopah; mus kawen dan nenek meninggal" abah. 

"rezeki nopah dpt tgk nenek sebelum balik ireland" mak ngah.

"nenek meninggal seminggu lepas raya, arwah atuk meninggal seminggu sebelum raya, macam date plak" mak itam.

p/s: seminggu lagi sebelum blk ireland. hati perlu kuat. tak usah kita bandingkan diri dgn orng yg lebih dari kita tp sentiasalah bandingkan dgn org yg lagi susah. teruskan berdoa utk saudara kte di Mesir. 2500+ org telah syahid di Mesir. 

dulu, mak teh, busu, pak cik Hisyam sume yg pergi belajar oversea tak blk2 pun malaysia mse cuti. terus duduk sne straight 5/6/7 tahun. hang ni blk every raya, duduk Ireland, bersyukur la ye? heee. 

p/p/s: sedang cuba menghabiskan buku Ilmu Makrifat peninggalan Tok Kenali sungguh sangat membuka mata hati utk mengenal Allah. sementara menyelesaikan hal2 utk pulang belajar ke ireland. 

self reflections in Ramadhan.

Salam 24 Ramadhan, 

It's been a long time dat we haven't met each other right? so, time is flying way too fast. Only 3 weeks left before I when back to Ireland. dunno why, but I tend to become quite emotional lately thinking about it but at the same time I have the feeling of eagerness and excited to start on my clinical years next sem plus missing everyone in Cork, the environment, the weather? etc etc. huhu.. well, putting that aside, currently I have so many random thoughts in my mind bout self-reflections.. 

Ramadhan being a holy month where we should aim to improve ourself in terms of our relationship with Allah and human kinds. . but sometimes we tend to slip somewhere, hurt someone's feeling without our intention, ego etc etc. and actually the best thing is to just seek forgiveness from that person and most importantly to Allah. And its such an amazing oppurtunity that Allah gave to us, its the Lailatul Qadar.

بِسۡمِ ٱللهِ ٱلرَّحۡمَـٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيمِ

إِنَّآ أَنزَلۡنَـٰهُ فِى لَيۡلَةِ ٱلۡقَدۡرِ (١) وَمَآ أَدۡرَٮٰكَ مَا لَيۡلَةُ ٱلۡقَدۡرِ (٢) لَيۡلَةُ ٱلۡقَدۡرِ خَيۡرٌ۬ مِّنۡ أَلۡفِ شَہۡرٍ۬ (٣) تَنَزَّلُ ٱلۡمَلَـٰٓٮِٕكَةُ وَٱلرُّوحُ فِيہَا بِإِذۡنِ رَبِّہِم مِّن كُلِّ أَمۡرٍ۬ (٤) سَلَـٰمٌ هِىَ حَتَّىٰ مَطۡلَعِ ٱلۡفَجۡرِ (٥)
We have sent it (the Qur’an) down in the Night of Qadr. ¹ (1) And what may let you know what the Night of Qadr is? (2) The Night of Qadr is much better than one thousand months. (3) The angels and the Spirit descend in it, with the leave of your Lord, along with every command. ² (4) Peace it is till the debut of dawn. (5)

May Allah guide our hearts to find the night of Qadr and to always seek forgiveness from Him. this is one of the best video I've seen which tells about the best doa that Rasulullah SAW taught Aishah . 

the next thing is the feeling of disappointed with my own self when I could not fulfill the all task given. well, in progress I should say but it's not efficient that I myself expect from myself. hmm. too much responsibilities? nahh.. Time management , multi-tasking, better delegations etc are the things that I shud improve on. 

But, Alhamdulillah for every thing that Allah has made our task easy. be it from the preparation for my brother's wedding till the wedding itself, Muslim Overseas Camp 2013, everything in the past, present and future. too many nikmat for us to thank Allah. and so indeed through the remembrance of Allah you may find peace. zikir=remember/ingat. And indeed all the things are gud for you in the knowledge of Allah. 

it's your job to find/believe the hidden meaning or in malay we called it "melihat yang tersirat dari yang tersurat".

so, chin up. n lets strive the best to gain His redha In Shaa Allah. La Hawla wala quwwata illa billah. =)